There comes a time in the pondering individuals life in which he must ask himself "How do I know I exist." This is a question which many want to avoid because they cannot seem to formulate a cohesive answer as they are treading a thought process not required in everyday life. However I have undertaken the task of answering this question which I have found myself asking.
Around us we experience many things, all of which can very easily be attributed to us creating a world to live in to stave off the boredom. This is a bit of the inspiration for works such as The Matrix, however if we are creating our own realities then who is to say that any person exists. I understand that I am typing this and that maybe it will be viewed, but how do I know that they are not simply amalgamations of my mind and meant to give me gratification or criticism. This is the question we all must ask ourselves "is there anything which can define reality?" The answer? No, we live in our own realities everyday (assuming that there is more than one consciousness), we take experiences in our own ways and have vastly different paths.
The issue of identity becomes apparent and really can only be summed in a way that has already been done before by more pretentious people. We have no idea if anything is real but take solace in the fact that no-one is sure of what is going on if this reality is not real. In order to accept that we are real we must have one person who we regard as real present us with the same authority. Once we have a mutual contract with our fellow man we can be certain in our love for this reality, even if it is false. Humans are considered social creatures who thrive on the interactions they have, this is because it is proof to us that we exist, if only in our mind and world.
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This entry was spurred by my viewing of a character which conveyed a sense of pointlessness to actions which one deems as human and ended on the note that we are nothing more than ideas. I sat pondering this idea and came with these findings, I hope you enjoyed this diatribe of self actualization and I will see you in my next post.
Showing posts with label General Talk. Show all posts
Showing posts with label General Talk. Show all posts
Tuesday, December 1, 2015
Saturday, October 17, 2015
Just a comment I posted that I felt needed mentioning
This is a comment which I put on an interesting explanation of MEMEME, it may sound self righteous but that's because that is how I learned to cope with life.
I enjoyed MEMEME and Girl. With MEMEME the obsession side is
accurate, moderation is required in everything, even moderation. To be honest I
don't get out much, but that is because I don't have money for it, though I go
to school and am regarded highly for my charisma. I am an otaku and collector
but the thing I am obsessive about is experience. I want to experience
everything because life feels so short, because of this I am proficient in a
large variety of skill and learned to have charisma in all things I do. I was
shy when I was young, but learned a few years ago that if I simply think about
myself and think of how I would want me to be, I can be successful. For
instance I enjoy acting, I currently have a near perfect score in my theatre
arts class and choir classes, I keep being told to take certain routes. I am
told this in many other subjects, especially regarding computers.
The reason I have gotten this far but still have a otaku and gaming lifestyle is because of narcissism, view yourself as the most amazing person in the world and you will be the most amazing person in the world. Love what you do, laugh at yourself. Life is subjective, if you have a sad outlook on life then you will be sad. Learn to laugh, even if the world thinks your inappropriate for laughing at something, be content with the fact that you are you, not anyone else. Probably the biggest inspiration to me for learning to deal with life was Welcome to the NHK, I find myself teetering between Sato and Yamazaki in how I live my life. Whenever I leave a place where I have been for even a month I get them saying that they miss me and want me back because it just isn't the same without me. I leave a trail of quirkiness, as I am blunt and honest about nearly everything (especially sexuality). Take this as you will but this is how I came out of a pit of years without friends, years of being cast from society for no other reason then that I was vulnerable. Now I am at a point that nothing effects me, I can take all the insults in history and not be phased simply because I have self confidence (also because I was forged in the fires of one of the worst schools socially in the midwest). Done with my diatribe, go back to watching videos.
The reason I have gotten this far but still have a otaku and gaming lifestyle is because of narcissism, view yourself as the most amazing person in the world and you will be the most amazing person in the world. Love what you do, laugh at yourself. Life is subjective, if you have a sad outlook on life then you will be sad. Learn to laugh, even if the world thinks your inappropriate for laughing at something, be content with the fact that you are you, not anyone else. Probably the biggest inspiration to me for learning to deal with life was Welcome to the NHK, I find myself teetering between Sato and Yamazaki in how I live my life. Whenever I leave a place where I have been for even a month I get them saying that they miss me and want me back because it just isn't the same without me. I leave a trail of quirkiness, as I am blunt and honest about nearly everything (especially sexuality). Take this as you will but this is how I came out of a pit of years without friends, years of being cast from society for no other reason then that I was vulnerable. Now I am at a point that nothing effects me, I can take all the insults in history and not be phased simply because I have self confidence (also because I was forged in the fires of one of the worst schools socially in the midwest). Done with my diatribe, go back to watching videos.
Problems of Reviewing shows
Reviewing comes with a myriad of problems; mainly you really have to be in the mood to review, also with shows you will often get side tracked to other shows unless you have a group of people to enjoy your reviews. You need reviews for people to enjoy, so it becomes a process of hopelessness and eventual results. I have watched a few shows recently but have mainly been watching Hunter X Hunter, which I think will be my true next review. I may however toss in Ore Twintails ni Narimasu today in order to appease my mind of being guilty over my laziness, though it took me around a month and a half to complete twintails because I kept being sidetracked by other shows which had more enduring plots. Though twintails has a good amount of plot (if you catch my drift). Fuck it today is a review day now. But first I will get back to the subject at hand.
Reviewing is a beast which requires special attention because often times you will catch yourself just enjoying yourself watching shows and wont think to actually ponder the show in an analytical format. This has happened to me a bunch and it leads to me not even remembering what I was going to say about some shows and having to rewatch them, which I only rewatch a show after at least a year has passed because seeing the same thing multiple times tends to sully its view for me. Thus I will begin going through my backlog and attempt to get through my backlog on at least a biweekly format. Around Christmas I am planning on purchasing a microphone which will allow for some high quality voice work, which will hopefully allow me to pump out reviews at a quality which suits my own expectations for myself. On to go finish the black lagoon review that has been sitting since may. (Laptops make reviews so much easier, I would even take a crap laptop just for that purpose"
Reviewing is a beast which requires special attention because often times you will catch yourself just enjoying yourself watching shows and wont think to actually ponder the show in an analytical format. This has happened to me a bunch and it leads to me not even remembering what I was going to say about some shows and having to rewatch them, which I only rewatch a show after at least a year has passed because seeing the same thing multiple times tends to sully its view for me. Thus I will begin going through my backlog and attempt to get through my backlog on at least a biweekly format. Around Christmas I am planning on purchasing a microphone which will allow for some high quality voice work, which will hopefully allow me to pump out reviews at a quality which suits my own expectations for myself. On to go finish the black lagoon review that has been sitting since may. (Laptops make reviews so much easier, I would even take a crap laptop just for that purpose"
Saturday, September 12, 2015
Update
I really need to start sticking with what I say. I have been swamped with school work so I haven't really been able to sit and type up a review. If I am on the computer I end up playing a game with a friend because it is something to do other than school.
I have finished a few more series including
Evangelion
Hellsing Ultimate
and Ore, Twintails ni Narimasu
I have also finished the Dance in the vampire bund Manga and am waiting for Volume Three of Scarlet Order. Here is a picture of the shelf that has Vampire Bund:
I cam currently Reading Trigun, I have the first series omnibus and the first omnibus of Trigun Maximum. Here is a picture of the purchase where I got that
And finally stuff that came with that. (I have another package on the way, I use manga to pad my amazon purchases for free shipping)
And for the hell of it to prove that I am an otaku but not a super otaku
I have finished a few more series including
Evangelion
Hellsing Ultimate
and Ore, Twintails ni Narimasu
I have also finished the Dance in the vampire bund Manga and am waiting for Volume Three of Scarlet Order. Here is a picture of the shelf that has Vampire Bund:
I cam currently Reading Trigun, I have the first series omnibus and the first omnibus of Trigun Maximum. Here is a picture of the purchase where I got that
Monday, July 27, 2015
Update and Upcoming Events
I have been silent for the past 2 months, I realize that this is quite unprofessional and I appologize for my absence to all who awaited more content. This summer has been "busy" for me, which I will detail below. I have watched quite a few anime and rewatched others which warrants a review as they are fairly fresh in my mind. The most recent series which I have watched is Akame ga Kill! which absolutely exceeded my expectations so this is what I will be covering as my next review, from there I will reroute back to a review which I started writing but never finished: Black Lagoon Roberta's Bloodtrail.
What have I been doing with my time? Well that is a question which is a little difficult to answer as I can't even remember some stuff as this whole summer has melded together with sleep schedules being thrown out the window and excessive amounts of time spent doing random things. I began the summer by playing some xbox games but I quickly tired of this and moved to the computer. I then began playing through tons of steam games and keeping up with other games, what really became a defining factor was my choice to buy Counterstrike Global Offensive as it allowed me to meet possibly the greatest friend I have ever met online. We have essentially been no lifing different games since we found eachother in a Counterstrike casual match which I was playing because I was on competitive cooldown. Over time our friendship flourished and we are where we are now.
After we played a lot of counterstrike I moved to no lifing World of Warcraft which lasted on month and had me hitting level cap and being close to it on a few others. After about 40 days of constant World of Warcraft play I moved to EVE online which happened a few days ago or more accurately 5 or 6 days ago, its really hard to tell as I keep staying up close to 30 hours at a time playing while doing other things as I am part of a mining corporation and have been appointed as the broker because I accel at investing our money and making a hefty profit.
I have in this time watched quite a few anime and bolstered my collection a fair amount, including many anime and finishing collecting every single book that has ever been released in the Dance in the Vampire Bund series. Though I haven't even started reading the 5th omnibus yet, too busy doing other things and want something to do in study hall at school. The reason for this is that unfortunately my phone broke and I lost every single contact to friends I had made in the last year at a completely different school which I won't be attending this year. It took about 5 hours to get over it so I am not infallible, though it took me that long because I was scared shitless about what my mother would do when she found out (She can be quite scary when it comes to money). So now that updates are out of the way it is time to list the reviews I will be releasing in order of release. (Dates are unknown as it really comes down to inspiration and not wanting to overload the passing traveler that stumble by this blog on the internet highway)
Akame ga Kill
Black Lagoon Roberta's Blood Trail OVA
Joshiraku
JoJo's Bizarre Adventure
Dragon Ball Z Battle of Gods
Strike Witches 2
Spice and Wolf (I rewatched it because I bought the complete series boxset)
That is series which I can guarantee will be done in that order as I have finished them. Here is a list of series I am watching and don't know when I will be done, some I have been trying to watch for years.
Ranma 1/2: I watched most of the series when I was in middle school and am revisiting it to truly appreciate it
One Piece: This will probably end when I turn 40 but I started watching it and have been enjoying it
Naruto: I have watched the whole first part of the series 3 times in my life but would like to watch from start to finish now that the series actually has an end. It will just be milked but hey it won't be called naruto or they are lying. Currently I am most of the way through the first part of the series before Shipuden so I will review it when I am done
Gintama: this is a series which I watched the 2 episode special because I heard it was funny and went "this is that Aqua Teen Hunger Force type of humor but just plain hard to understand at points" so I may or may not finish this series, haven't watched more than the special yet so we will see
Lucky Star: I have heard so much about this series and enjoy the opening so I decided to start lucky star and have enjoyed it but pretty much ration it out because it is a type of show that should be enjoyed over time
Blazblue Alter Memory: I decided to watch this after seeing some stuff about it and liking the opening so I am a few episodes in, little depressed that it only got dubbed for 2 episodes because the voices were good for those episodes, high quality compared to most quick cash-ins which I have seen lately.
Trigun: This is a series which has been dear to my heart my whole time in the anime fandom and I am re-watching it on the box-set I bought so I can give it a proper review, I also bought some of the omnibuses for the series.
Asa Made Jugyou Chu! : I heard this was a bad cross dressing anime but it is short and I thought "might as well knock this one off my list sooner than later"
Bakuretsu Tenshi: I highly enjoy the character designs in this show and the music/atmosphere of the show but the character interaction feels barren, very bleak, which is why I am only 6 episodes in so far
Black Rock Shooter: (I can't make a star Icon so don't judge the name not being accurate) I have been trying to watch this show for something like 2 years now and haven't made a ton of progress, usually I end up starting over. I enjoy the shows cgi parts but the show feels just unpleasant at points which makes it hard to watch.
Free!: I have heard a lot of praise from some people as they laughed a lot watching this show. I have seen some hilarious vines involving this show and it seems to have some really nice character interactions.
Girls Und Panzer: The concept of tank warfare on aircraft carriers that hold nations just sounds insane so I feel like I need to check this out. also Girls Und Panzer Tokyo Drift needs to be a thing with that one scene
Monogatari Second Season, Hannamonogatari, Tsukimonogatari, Nekomonogatari: I lump all these into one because they are ostensibly the same series, they have the same characters etc. I enjoyed the first to seasons to I have high expectations for the rest of it.
Hataraku Maou-sama! (Devil is a Part-Timer): I had no desire to watch this show until I saw it with an anime club I hung out with. The show is quite humorous and even made my mom laugh quite a lot when she watched it.
K-On!: I have heard relentless praise of the show where nothing happens: Seinfeld, oh wait that's the show about nothing. K-On! has received relentless praise and has inspired the whole moe slice of life genre along with lucky star. I also watch Joshiraku which constantly compares itself to K-On! and makes jokes about it.
Katanagatari: 12 hours of my life I will spend watching this dialogue heavy show written by the same writer as the monogatari franchise, why don't I just buy the damned book?
Kiss x Sis: This show...oh this show... the dad needs a medal and it surprisingly doesn't appeal to me that much. It is funny, but the fanservice is over the top and fetishy, if I want an imouto show I will watch Oreimo as it is much better. However I feel like I have to finish this because I knew a girl freshman year of highschool that had this is her absolute favorite series.
Kore wa Zombie Desu ka? of the Dead: I highly enjoyed the first season of Is This a Zombie? and have been saving the second season as a palette cleanser.
Log Horizon: I began this show while it was airing but it simply slipped by as I watched other shows.
Seikoku no Dragonar: I bought the first volume of this manga and cringed at how bad it was, at least there were occasional tits but even then it was tasteless fanservice. I found out at the back that there was an anime and had to see just how bad it was considering it took the only redeeming factor of the manga and got rid of it making it complete garbage
Seitokai Yakuindomo: I stumbled on a collection of funny scenes from this anime and laughed my ass off, so I have this in here because I will watch it when I blow through everything else on this list
Shakugan no Shana: Oh Tabitha Saint Germain please do more anime dubs, I have been most of the way through this series for a while and enjoyed it a lot. It has many flaws but overall is a good watch.
Space Dandy: (again can't do stars) I have heard praise for this show all around and loved the episode I watched when it premiered, I just don't watch toonami but a few times a year.
Sword Art Online II: this... this show is so bad that I have a whole series where Digibro tried to pick out parts he found to be the worst. I am only a few episodes in and it is just so much talking with nothing going on. Stale air and anvil sized drops of exposition on top of blue haired gamer bait camel toe and a useless villian with more plot holes than tits made of swiss.
Tsukuyomi Moon Phase: This is a series which is fun to watch and was recommended to me for a month before I started watching it.
There you have it, a list of anime which you can expect to see in the future, as a side note always assume there will be surprises. See you in the next post!
What have I been doing with my time? Well that is a question which is a little difficult to answer as I can't even remember some stuff as this whole summer has melded together with sleep schedules being thrown out the window and excessive amounts of time spent doing random things. I began the summer by playing some xbox games but I quickly tired of this and moved to the computer. I then began playing through tons of steam games and keeping up with other games, what really became a defining factor was my choice to buy Counterstrike Global Offensive as it allowed me to meet possibly the greatest friend I have ever met online. We have essentially been no lifing different games since we found eachother in a Counterstrike casual match which I was playing because I was on competitive cooldown. Over time our friendship flourished and we are where we are now.
After we played a lot of counterstrike I moved to no lifing World of Warcraft which lasted on month and had me hitting level cap and being close to it on a few others. After about 40 days of constant World of Warcraft play I moved to EVE online which happened a few days ago or more accurately 5 or 6 days ago, its really hard to tell as I keep staying up close to 30 hours at a time playing while doing other things as I am part of a mining corporation and have been appointed as the broker because I accel at investing our money and making a hefty profit.
I have in this time watched quite a few anime and bolstered my collection a fair amount, including many anime and finishing collecting every single book that has ever been released in the Dance in the Vampire Bund series. Though I haven't even started reading the 5th omnibus yet, too busy doing other things and want something to do in study hall at school. The reason for this is that unfortunately my phone broke and I lost every single contact to friends I had made in the last year at a completely different school which I won't be attending this year. It took about 5 hours to get over it so I am not infallible, though it took me that long because I was scared shitless about what my mother would do when she found out (She can be quite scary when it comes to money). So now that updates are out of the way it is time to list the reviews I will be releasing in order of release. (Dates are unknown as it really comes down to inspiration and not wanting to overload the passing traveler that stumble by this blog on the internet highway)
Akame ga Kill
Black Lagoon Roberta's Blood Trail OVA
Joshiraku
JoJo's Bizarre Adventure
Dragon Ball Z Battle of Gods
Strike Witches 2
Spice and Wolf (I rewatched it because I bought the complete series boxset)
That is series which I can guarantee will be done in that order as I have finished them. Here is a list of series I am watching and don't know when I will be done, some I have been trying to watch for years.
Ranma 1/2: I watched most of the series when I was in middle school and am revisiting it to truly appreciate it
One Piece: This will probably end when I turn 40 but I started watching it and have been enjoying it
Naruto: I have watched the whole first part of the series 3 times in my life but would like to watch from start to finish now that the series actually has an end. It will just be milked but hey it won't be called naruto or they are lying. Currently I am most of the way through the first part of the series before Shipuden so I will review it when I am done
Gintama: this is a series which I watched the 2 episode special because I heard it was funny and went "this is that Aqua Teen Hunger Force type of humor but just plain hard to understand at points" so I may or may not finish this series, haven't watched more than the special yet so we will see
Lucky Star: I have heard so much about this series and enjoy the opening so I decided to start lucky star and have enjoyed it but pretty much ration it out because it is a type of show that should be enjoyed over time
Blazblue Alter Memory: I decided to watch this after seeing some stuff about it and liking the opening so I am a few episodes in, little depressed that it only got dubbed for 2 episodes because the voices were good for those episodes, high quality compared to most quick cash-ins which I have seen lately.
Trigun: This is a series which has been dear to my heart my whole time in the anime fandom and I am re-watching it on the box-set I bought so I can give it a proper review, I also bought some of the omnibuses for the series.
Asa Made Jugyou Chu! : I heard this was a bad cross dressing anime but it is short and I thought "might as well knock this one off my list sooner than later"
Bakuretsu Tenshi: I highly enjoy the character designs in this show and the music/atmosphere of the show but the character interaction feels barren, very bleak, which is why I am only 6 episodes in so far
Black Rock Shooter: (I can't make a star Icon so don't judge the name not being accurate) I have been trying to watch this show for something like 2 years now and haven't made a ton of progress, usually I end up starting over. I enjoy the shows cgi parts but the show feels just unpleasant at points which makes it hard to watch.
Free!: I have heard a lot of praise from some people as they laughed a lot watching this show. I have seen some hilarious vines involving this show and it seems to have some really nice character interactions.
Girls Und Panzer: The concept of tank warfare on aircraft carriers that hold nations just sounds insane so I feel like I need to check this out. also Girls Und Panzer Tokyo Drift needs to be a thing with that one scene
Monogatari Second Season, Hannamonogatari, Tsukimonogatari, Nekomonogatari: I lump all these into one because they are ostensibly the same series, they have the same characters etc. I enjoyed the first to seasons to I have high expectations for the rest of it.
Hataraku Maou-sama! (Devil is a Part-Timer): I had no desire to watch this show until I saw it with an anime club I hung out with. The show is quite humorous and even made my mom laugh quite a lot when she watched it.
K-On!: I have heard relentless praise of the show where nothing happens: Seinfeld, oh wait that's the show about nothing. K-On! has received relentless praise and has inspired the whole moe slice of life genre along with lucky star. I also watch Joshiraku which constantly compares itself to K-On! and makes jokes about it.
Katanagatari: 12 hours of my life I will spend watching this dialogue heavy show written by the same writer as the monogatari franchise, why don't I just buy the damned book?
Kiss x Sis: This show...oh this show... the dad needs a medal and it surprisingly doesn't appeal to me that much. It is funny, but the fanservice is over the top and fetishy, if I want an imouto show I will watch Oreimo as it is much better. However I feel like I have to finish this because I knew a girl freshman year of highschool that had this is her absolute favorite series.
Kore wa Zombie Desu ka? of the Dead: I highly enjoyed the first season of Is This a Zombie? and have been saving the second season as a palette cleanser.
Log Horizon: I began this show while it was airing but it simply slipped by as I watched other shows.
Seikoku no Dragonar: I bought the first volume of this manga and cringed at how bad it was, at least there were occasional tits but even then it was tasteless fanservice. I found out at the back that there was an anime and had to see just how bad it was considering it took the only redeeming factor of the manga and got rid of it making it complete garbage
Seitokai Yakuindomo: I stumbled on a collection of funny scenes from this anime and laughed my ass off, so I have this in here because I will watch it when I blow through everything else on this list
Shakugan no Shana: Oh Tabitha Saint Germain please do more anime dubs, I have been most of the way through this series for a while and enjoyed it a lot. It has many flaws but overall is a good watch.
Space Dandy: (again can't do stars) I have heard praise for this show all around and loved the episode I watched when it premiered, I just don't watch toonami but a few times a year.
Sword Art Online II: this... this show is so bad that I have a whole series where Digibro tried to pick out parts he found to be the worst. I am only a few episodes in and it is just so much talking with nothing going on. Stale air and anvil sized drops of exposition on top of blue haired gamer bait camel toe and a useless villian with more plot holes than tits made of swiss.
Tsukuyomi Moon Phase: This is a series which is fun to watch and was recommended to me for a month before I started watching it.
There you have it, a list of anime which you can expect to see in the future, as a side note always assume there will be surprises. See you in the next post!
Monday, May 11, 2015
Current Events/ Verdict on Watamote
Well it is May and I have been switching through shows quite a bit lately. I went from finishing Blood Lad to watching Bakuretsu tenshii instead of finishing Black Bullet or shakugan no shana or the other shows I started (black rock shooter being close to six months ago). Now i decided to watch Watamote, this was a bad idea...
Watamote so far (2 episodes in) has been depressing to say the least. With Welcome to the NHK paling in comparison if you are masochistic. The difference is that Welcome to the NHK is funny and gives you glimpses of hope while ending on a fairly nice note. Watamote on the other hand is like a bully, it gives you a nice gift only to swat it out of your hands and crush it. It feels like anything good that happens to Tomoko will just result in her not seeing the whole picture or being crushed by something else.
The show actually left me not wanting to watch another episode out of dread. My worst nightmare would be not having the ability to communicate with others, I talk all the time and love to do so. I have to have human interaction pretty much all the time, if I don't talk to someone for more than a few days I start suffering from mental issues. I probably have some pending mental diagnosis coming but that is me, I start to have moments of psychosis and am less and less in reality. Though all I need to remedy this is a persons voice and us to start talking. To see someone that is so far from reality most of the time and can't communicate actually instills a feeling of dread in me.
My ears had a tingly sensation, the kind I get when I don't want to do something. Like my body is rejecting this anime.
So I think im going to watch something else for now. But I really need to get through the 20 shows on my watch list. Maybe I will start Gintama so that I have something to sort of reset my pallet. Like coffee beans at a candle shop or fruit slice at a winery. Something that is completely different and thus lets you look upon it with an unbiased view.
Though Watamote seems to be trying at a comedy they don't seem to know how humor works.
If you see a man trip you will laugh, if you see him trip then break his neck its not as funny, if you see him trip then break his neck then watch a slew of people brutally hit him till he is dead it is only funny to a certain crowd. But if the man is a 90 year old blind person that trips, breaks his neck, cries out for help, is bruatally murdered by everyone around him it isn't funny anymore. You took the slap stick out and made it into a walking stick that is being used to crush the poor mans ribs. This is essentially what Watamote does it gives you a character that has the false notion that she is the most popular girl. You establish that she isn't popular but then hammer the nail whenever you can. She lacks speech skills and when she does speak it is more pitiful than a dying mouses last squeak. Then she is remotely happy and is crushed, then she goes to the only thing that had made her happy and you find out that even that is nothing special and I quote you "no body cares about those characters".
Watamote so far (2 episodes in) has been depressing to say the least. With Welcome to the NHK paling in comparison if you are masochistic. The difference is that Welcome to the NHK is funny and gives you glimpses of hope while ending on a fairly nice note. Watamote on the other hand is like a bully, it gives you a nice gift only to swat it out of your hands and crush it. It feels like anything good that happens to Tomoko will just result in her not seeing the whole picture or being crushed by something else.
The show actually left me not wanting to watch another episode out of dread. My worst nightmare would be not having the ability to communicate with others, I talk all the time and love to do so. I have to have human interaction pretty much all the time, if I don't talk to someone for more than a few days I start suffering from mental issues. I probably have some pending mental diagnosis coming but that is me, I start to have moments of psychosis and am less and less in reality. Though all I need to remedy this is a persons voice and us to start talking. To see someone that is so far from reality most of the time and can't communicate actually instills a feeling of dread in me.
My ears had a tingly sensation, the kind I get when I don't want to do something. Like my body is rejecting this anime.
So I think im going to watch something else for now. But I really need to get through the 20 shows on my watch list. Maybe I will start Gintama so that I have something to sort of reset my pallet. Like coffee beans at a candle shop or fruit slice at a winery. Something that is completely different and thus lets you look upon it with an unbiased view.
Though Watamote seems to be trying at a comedy they don't seem to know how humor works.
If you see a man trip you will laugh, if you see him trip then break his neck its not as funny, if you see him trip then break his neck then watch a slew of people brutally hit him till he is dead it is only funny to a certain crowd. But if the man is a 90 year old blind person that trips, breaks his neck, cries out for help, is bruatally murdered by everyone around him it isn't funny anymore. You took the slap stick out and made it into a walking stick that is being used to crush the poor mans ribs. This is essentially what Watamote does it gives you a character that has the false notion that she is the most popular girl. You establish that she isn't popular but then hammer the nail whenever you can. She lacks speech skills and when she does speak it is more pitiful than a dying mouses last squeak. Then she is remotely happy and is crushed, then she goes to the only thing that had made her happy and you find out that even that is nothing special and I quote you "no body cares about those characters".
Another note is that Kiss x Sis is also on hiatus. I enjoy some
scenes but overall the show is soft-core hentai.
Also I am once again in ISS which means
watching some anime while reading my Dance in the Vampire Bund Doujinshii
collection. I will start with the latter and move to anime when I see fit. I
can't really decide right now what I want to watch, maybe I will finish Black
Bullet so I can do a review on that, maybe I will wade through the infinite
waters that is One Piece. You will have to find out once I do my next update,
which will most likely be tomorrow.
Monday, April 6, 2015
Post Spring Break Aftermath and Warframe
Well spring break was last week and surprisingly I did not watch a second of anime or read a single word of a manga though when I got back to school I ended up finishing Dive in the Vampire bund which is so short it doesn't warrant a review so it receives an 8/10, seeing as its a manga I can't judge it on normal standards so it is just judged on visuals, story, and personal enjoyment. Moving on from Dance in the Vampire Bund which will be done in another review once I finish the series (one more omnibus to go, already skipped ahead to the new series). I also started up Black Bullet again and will go through that in the next few days.
Now how did I spend my spring break I hear the uninterested crickets in the crowd chirp, well I spent it as any normal nerd would and spent the whole time playing games while talking with friends, save for a day when I toured a mall while bored and a day I went hiking because of the partial hippy I am. The games I played were WoW, OSU!, Minecraft Tekkit, and lastly Warframe. There were other games but these were the main ones. I spent the first half of break playing WoW, leveling a death knight and later a pandaren monk. Interspersed between leveling was me tending to my home in tekkit, making an automatic coal generator with a condenser, setting up hundreds of power flowers, setting up a shop, losing said shop 3 times, being raided, making a new base, etc. Also tossed in there was OSU! which is a rhythm based game for those who don't know, it is like guitar hero but with circles and lines.... wait that guitar hero, well instead of them coming down at you they appear all over the screen and go to the rhythm of the song. So that was my week up until Wednesday.
Wednesday was the day that I decided to play Warframe, I had the game downloaded for probably 6 months and had never touched it. Boy was I missing out, the game is loads of fun, it is like if destiny was actually good, I know amazing concept. The game came out in 2013 and is amazing, you are a tenno and you have a warframe which is essentially a body of armor, this armor has different abilities and thus you as a tenno can play whatever class you choose. If you want to be stealthy make the loki warframe, if you want to be tanky make the rhino warframe, etc. These warframes are made in the foundry with blueprints you find while playing the game, these aren't just given to you though, you have to work for them, which means playing the game a bunch. You have to find a total of 4 unique blueprints for each warframe and then you have to find all the ingredients, so it takes a bit. The game goes on a 3 weapon loadout system with you taking a primary, a secondary, and a melee. Now I spent 98% of my time meleeing because it is badass, I get to run, jump, parkour, and slice/mash my way through people while blocking like a Jedi master. You feel amazing, and the game has so much more, there are stealth missions, slaughter type missions, kidnapping missions, and assassination missions on top of other objective mission like mobile defense, defense, and survival (note the previous titles are not the real titles but a simplified layman's term for them). The game is exceedingly fun, hell it even has space combat with the archwings as well as pets and little sentinel companions that do more than talk to you (they are meant for fighting and don't talk like dinkle bot from destiny). The game is so much fun, the last mechanic I will mention is the Clan mechanic which is robust and adds more layers to this amazing cheesecake, the clan mechanic is like having an entire living population. You have a clan dojo which people can access if they make the key, it is a place where you construct a safe house if you may and make it as nice as you want with as many commodities as you want. You can have tons of research facilities which allow you to make a bunch of items only clans can make, one of which is a solar rail which allows people to access dark sectors around planets, the only negative being that you must pay a tax to use this rail which is a portion of all the loot you get in your stay at that dark sector. You can deploy spectres which are AI to defend your rail, as well as contract other people to defend it from rival clans who can start a war by deploying their rail in the sector. There is so much to the player economy and behaviors it leaves me awestruck. I one time needed polymer bundles on a brand new character and I was playing a mission on mercury to get it, when I told a dude why I was there he took me to neptune and did 20 waves of defense so I could get all the polymer bundles a man could ask for. The players are very nice and helped me when I had an issue. Now all that I have just covered is only scratching the surface of this game so I suggest you play it for yourself to see if you like it, it is free on steam and their website.
Now how did I spend my spring break I hear the uninterested crickets in the crowd chirp, well I spent it as any normal nerd would and spent the whole time playing games while talking with friends, save for a day when I toured a mall while bored and a day I went hiking because of the partial hippy I am. The games I played were WoW, OSU!, Minecraft Tekkit, and lastly Warframe. There were other games but these were the main ones. I spent the first half of break playing WoW, leveling a death knight and later a pandaren monk. Interspersed between leveling was me tending to my home in tekkit, making an automatic coal generator with a condenser, setting up hundreds of power flowers, setting up a shop, losing said shop 3 times, being raided, making a new base, etc. Also tossed in there was OSU! which is a rhythm based game for those who don't know, it is like guitar hero but with circles and lines.... wait that guitar hero, well instead of them coming down at you they appear all over the screen and go to the rhythm of the song. So that was my week up until Wednesday.
Wednesday was the day that I decided to play Warframe, I had the game downloaded for probably 6 months and had never touched it. Boy was I missing out, the game is loads of fun, it is like if destiny was actually good, I know amazing concept. The game came out in 2013 and is amazing, you are a tenno and you have a warframe which is essentially a body of armor, this armor has different abilities and thus you as a tenno can play whatever class you choose. If you want to be stealthy make the loki warframe, if you want to be tanky make the rhino warframe, etc. These warframes are made in the foundry with blueprints you find while playing the game, these aren't just given to you though, you have to work for them, which means playing the game a bunch. You have to find a total of 4 unique blueprints for each warframe and then you have to find all the ingredients, so it takes a bit. The game goes on a 3 weapon loadout system with you taking a primary, a secondary, and a melee. Now I spent 98% of my time meleeing because it is badass, I get to run, jump, parkour, and slice/mash my way through people while blocking like a Jedi master. You feel amazing, and the game has so much more, there are stealth missions, slaughter type missions, kidnapping missions, and assassination missions on top of other objective mission like mobile defense, defense, and survival (note the previous titles are not the real titles but a simplified layman's term for them). The game is exceedingly fun, hell it even has space combat with the archwings as well as pets and little sentinel companions that do more than talk to you (they are meant for fighting and don't talk like dinkle bot from destiny). The game is so much fun, the last mechanic I will mention is the Clan mechanic which is robust and adds more layers to this amazing cheesecake, the clan mechanic is like having an entire living population. You have a clan dojo which people can access if they make the key, it is a place where you construct a safe house if you may and make it as nice as you want with as many commodities as you want. You can have tons of research facilities which allow you to make a bunch of items only clans can make, one of which is a solar rail which allows people to access dark sectors around planets, the only negative being that you must pay a tax to use this rail which is a portion of all the loot you get in your stay at that dark sector. You can deploy spectres which are AI to defend your rail, as well as contract other people to defend it from rival clans who can start a war by deploying their rail in the sector. There is so much to the player economy and behaviors it leaves me awestruck. I one time needed polymer bundles on a brand new character and I was playing a mission on mercury to get it, when I told a dude why I was there he took me to neptune and did 20 waves of defense so I could get all the polymer bundles a man could ask for. The players are very nice and helped me when I had an issue. Now all that I have just covered is only scratching the surface of this game so I suggest you play it for yourself to see if you like it, it is free on steam and their website.
Friday, March 27, 2015
Update on Current Events for me
Well I am going to be taking a break from anime this spring break, maybe I will watch a few episodes here and there at night but for the most part I will be playing World of Warcraft. Yes I am one of THOSE people who sits at home in a dark room staring at a screen paying money to play a game. Well guess what I have the money to do so, but also I have many friends who play. I have a few accounts around level 60 so I will be trying to get those to level 90 as soon as possible.
Most likely the next review will be of Black Bullet as that is the show I am currently watching. Overall the show has ups and downs and likes to stay in the "meh its good for a rainy day" bin for the most part. It is not amazing, it doesn't have amazing characters and for the most part is just meh. I enjoyed the first villain though he was killed off pretty quick, no long fight scene that keeps you on edge, no power struggle. Just booped the masked dudes nose and he died, its like one of those freak accidents in a wrestling match, you throw a play punch and suddenly the guy is dead because his nose fractured and pierced his brain when he fell. Now you have a law suit and will never be hired again in the same field because you have been labeled a horrible murderer and are too violent for the ring. So you live a life of depression and drinking as well as some drugs thrown in there until one day someone picks a fight with you and you end up bashing his skull in and cement yourself as a murderer. At which point the police come and take you to reiker prison and you become the leader of the prison gangs before you stage a riot and claim glory. See how much more interesting this is than the plot of Black Bullet? Watch it and you will see.
Heck at this rate I might as well go watch The Gemini Meteor arc of Darker Than Black, Hei is homeless dude and even though I have heard it was bade might be better than Black Bullet. By no means is Black Bullet bad it is just a meh fest with blood thrown in to be edgy and tons of badass loli characters. Guess what I love loli's in anime but that is not all there has to be for me to like it. The show needs to have a good atmosphere, story, and pacing. Black Bullet has a generic atmosphere and a very slightly original concept for the story which is handled in a meh way. And the Pacing is nonexistent, it is too fast for most scenes and you don't get to absorb what is really going on. I sit down for an episode and before I know it, its over and i'm sitting there looking at the screen going "that's it, really I would think it accomplish more with how fast paced it is". So let's just say that Black Bullet will be getting around a 6 if it doesn't step up to what it could be. It is possible that I was spoiled by amazing anime recently or my eyes have been opened by these anime. Maybe I have become pretentious though if that were the case I probably wouldn't even give the anime the score that I give them now.
So march has been a good month for this blog with many posts coming, usually multiple posts a week, so I am hoping for the same in April and I am hoping to be able to work through a lot of my backlog of over 200 anime. So i think sometime in April I will try a challenge where I have to watch as much anime as humanly possible during a week where I have school. This will be to make up for the failed stay up until monogatari is finished thing. I have a goal of over the course of the next few years training my body to be able to stay up for as long as I need it to, the reason I failed last time was due to stomach pain. When you are tired you need more and more food to be able to stay awake because you are using more energy just to function. Though I will watch shonen during this time as if you have seen the Bakemonogatari review it is not good to stay awake and then try to review. Your brain starts to not remember near as much because sleep is the time where you recall all the events of the previous day so if you have not slept then your body will start to forget more and more and you will eventually get to the point where you lose basic functions and begin hallucinating. I want to use a long running shonen like bleach or naruto because I have already watched both series all the way through. (naruto i'm on my 3rd watch through around episode 99, I use long running shounen to fill in gaps where I don't know what to watch). The reason why one piece isn't on there is because I am still watching it for the first time and i'm around episode 4. So for a challenge of endurance watching something that will keep your attention but not require a ton of thinking is required, as too much time thinking means that you will fall behind. This is what happened to me during the monogatari trials I got sidetracked a ton and ended up not watching bakemonogatari for the most part and was instead watching videos on youtube because I would think about a ton of things. If I am watching a show I have already seen I should be fine, I might even pull out some box sets though my TV is crap in that regard.
If I do this challenge I will be making a twitch account and streaming it with a webcam, I don't have one currently but I can buy one for this. I have a twitch account but I made a typo in the name so I will delete it and make a new one. I am tired right now which I find funny due to wanting to do a sleepless challenge, that is mainly because every night I end up staying up till midnight and then have to get up at around 6, that is 6 hours of sleep if I go to sleep right away though that rarely happens. It is also because I am in school and school is draining when not with friends, I am sitting here in ISS on a laptop which is not mine typing this, because I still haven't gotten my laptop back. It has 100 gigs of anime on it, but I have 120 on my home computer. I am going to need to buy an external hard drive soon though, I only have 300 gigs available on my terabyte hard drive and it is depressing. If I get one it will be a 3tb Seagate one, they make good external hard drives. Though I will also back everything up on discs, I have already done that to my torrented movies just in case. For the anime I am going to have to have an entire stack of DVDs, hopefully I can find DVD 9's which are 9 gig DVD's instead of the more common 5 gigabyte ones. If my pc had a blu ray encoder I could put it on two of those because they can hold 50 gigs. Oh the joys of being a pirate, though the anime isn't even a DVD rip, it is from the website kissanime.com they have a huge selection and are sponsored by a ton of people. From what I have been able to tell the site isn't illegal, though I have been downloading the videos for the sake of having access to the anime. The only series that I have put on discs is all but 2 episodes of Spice and Wolf. The reason for this is that I have to download it at 1080p which takes forever and the DVD encoding for one disc which holds 3-4 episodes takes around an hour. That is too long to have a series that I can watch on a big TV when I am content with having smaller 360p videos that I can watch on a laptop or my phone. Also the Spice and Wolf ending theme is stuck in my head now.
I can see that this post is getting very long but I am venting a bit, not to anyone in particular just venting frustration about life the universe and everything. I am also just stalling until school lets out for spring break. I have done all my work and I have a few Dance in the Vampire bund manga to read but I just want to be able to listen to music from my drive while I sit here typing this out. This is probably the closest to my thought document that I have gotten on this blog, though my thought document is similar to a diary and shouldn't be read by anyone. This is a post which I will be sending to the masses.
I will do some more research on streaming because I would like to be able to save the stream and be able to do highlights. A bit of an issue is ensuring that my fan won't interfere too much, if it does I will figure out something. I don't want to do this unless I think that I can get the best quality for those that watch it. So yeah I will get back to you guys once I am done with that and I decide how I will manage this, it is possible that I won't do this challenge until a few months later when I can get a better mic, if so it will be a blue snowball.
Most likely the next review will be of Black Bullet as that is the show I am currently watching. Overall the show has ups and downs and likes to stay in the "meh its good for a rainy day" bin for the most part. It is not amazing, it doesn't have amazing characters and for the most part is just meh. I enjoyed the first villain though he was killed off pretty quick, no long fight scene that keeps you on edge, no power struggle. Just booped the masked dudes nose and he died, its like one of those freak accidents in a wrestling match, you throw a play punch and suddenly the guy is dead because his nose fractured and pierced his brain when he fell. Now you have a law suit and will never be hired again in the same field because you have been labeled a horrible murderer and are too violent for the ring. So you live a life of depression and drinking as well as some drugs thrown in there until one day someone picks a fight with you and you end up bashing his skull in and cement yourself as a murderer. At which point the police come and take you to reiker prison and you become the leader of the prison gangs before you stage a riot and claim glory. See how much more interesting this is than the plot of Black Bullet? Watch it and you will see.
Heck at this rate I might as well go watch The Gemini Meteor arc of Darker Than Black, Hei is homeless dude and even though I have heard it was bade might be better than Black Bullet. By no means is Black Bullet bad it is just a meh fest with blood thrown in to be edgy and tons of badass loli characters. Guess what I love loli's in anime but that is not all there has to be for me to like it. The show needs to have a good atmosphere, story, and pacing. Black Bullet has a generic atmosphere and a very slightly original concept for the story which is handled in a meh way. And the Pacing is nonexistent, it is too fast for most scenes and you don't get to absorb what is really going on. I sit down for an episode and before I know it, its over and i'm sitting there looking at the screen going "that's it, really I would think it accomplish more with how fast paced it is". So let's just say that Black Bullet will be getting around a 6 if it doesn't step up to what it could be. It is possible that I was spoiled by amazing anime recently or my eyes have been opened by these anime. Maybe I have become pretentious though if that were the case I probably wouldn't even give the anime the score that I give them now.
So march has been a good month for this blog with many posts coming, usually multiple posts a week, so I am hoping for the same in April and I am hoping to be able to work through a lot of my backlog of over 200 anime. So i think sometime in April I will try a challenge where I have to watch as much anime as humanly possible during a week where I have school. This will be to make up for the failed stay up until monogatari is finished thing. I have a goal of over the course of the next few years training my body to be able to stay up for as long as I need it to, the reason I failed last time was due to stomach pain. When you are tired you need more and more food to be able to stay awake because you are using more energy just to function. Though I will watch shonen during this time as if you have seen the Bakemonogatari review it is not good to stay awake and then try to review. Your brain starts to not remember near as much because sleep is the time where you recall all the events of the previous day so if you have not slept then your body will start to forget more and more and you will eventually get to the point where you lose basic functions and begin hallucinating. I want to use a long running shonen like bleach or naruto because I have already watched both series all the way through. (naruto i'm on my 3rd watch through around episode 99, I use long running shounen to fill in gaps where I don't know what to watch). The reason why one piece isn't on there is because I am still watching it for the first time and i'm around episode 4. So for a challenge of endurance watching something that will keep your attention but not require a ton of thinking is required, as too much time thinking means that you will fall behind. This is what happened to me during the monogatari trials I got sidetracked a ton and ended up not watching bakemonogatari for the most part and was instead watching videos on youtube because I would think about a ton of things. If I am watching a show I have already seen I should be fine, I might even pull out some box sets though my TV is crap in that regard.
If I do this challenge I will be making a twitch account and streaming it with a webcam, I don't have one currently but I can buy one for this. I have a twitch account but I made a typo in the name so I will delete it and make a new one. I am tired right now which I find funny due to wanting to do a sleepless challenge, that is mainly because every night I end up staying up till midnight and then have to get up at around 6, that is 6 hours of sleep if I go to sleep right away though that rarely happens. It is also because I am in school and school is draining when not with friends, I am sitting here in ISS on a laptop which is not mine typing this, because I still haven't gotten my laptop back. It has 100 gigs of anime on it, but I have 120 on my home computer. I am going to need to buy an external hard drive soon though, I only have 300 gigs available on my terabyte hard drive and it is depressing. If I get one it will be a 3tb Seagate one, they make good external hard drives. Though I will also back everything up on discs, I have already done that to my torrented movies just in case. For the anime I am going to have to have an entire stack of DVDs, hopefully I can find DVD 9's which are 9 gig DVD's instead of the more common 5 gigabyte ones. If my pc had a blu ray encoder I could put it on two of those because they can hold 50 gigs. Oh the joys of being a pirate, though the anime isn't even a DVD rip, it is from the website kissanime.com they have a huge selection and are sponsored by a ton of people. From what I have been able to tell the site isn't illegal, though I have been downloading the videos for the sake of having access to the anime. The only series that I have put on discs is all but 2 episodes of Spice and Wolf. The reason for this is that I have to download it at 1080p which takes forever and the DVD encoding for one disc which holds 3-4 episodes takes around an hour. That is too long to have a series that I can watch on a big TV when I am content with having smaller 360p videos that I can watch on a laptop or my phone. Also the Spice and Wolf ending theme is stuck in my head now.
I can see that this post is getting very long but I am venting a bit, not to anyone in particular just venting frustration about life the universe and everything. I am also just stalling until school lets out for spring break. I have done all my work and I have a few Dance in the Vampire bund manga to read but I just want to be able to listen to music from my drive while I sit here typing this out. This is probably the closest to my thought document that I have gotten on this blog, though my thought document is similar to a diary and shouldn't be read by anyone. This is a post which I will be sending to the masses.
I will do some more research on streaming because I would like to be able to save the stream and be able to do highlights. A bit of an issue is ensuring that my fan won't interfere too much, if it does I will figure out something. I don't want to do this unless I think that I can get the best quality for those that watch it. So yeah I will get back to you guys once I am done with that and I decide how I will manage this, it is possible that I won't do this challenge until a few months later when I can get a better mic, if so it will be a blue snowball.
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
The Beginning of a Journey
Welcome one and all to the blog!
I'm happy to see you all!
Now where this really begins, though i do love that picture of Yin from Black Bullet enough that i put it as the blogs background. This blog is going to be a place which i express feelings which I would like to get out there to people, i was noticing that my comment postings on YouTube were usually a literal paragraph and decided that if i am to have a long comment on a video i will post it here. If i have something that i have been thinking about i will post it here. Know that this is not a place that i am dumping thoughts as i already have a 30 page long Google doc where i dump my thoughts and such on a semi regular basis but that is private and is more close to a diary. This however is going to be a place which i am talking about things which i want to get out there, on a side note it is damn cold right now as my furnace is being repaired and the temperature in this room just dropped into the 50's, however this is an example of inspiration which can be drawn from anything which is where the name of this blog comes from. When i think about this cold i catch myself thinking of Russians in Siberia bundled up and walking through the harsh cold just as prisoners did when Siberia was used as a place of exile. Like this i am exiled in this 10x10 room with a few blankets typing a blog on a small school laptop which was lent to me due to going to a tech school instead of high-school. I currently have a website which i am making in the background along with notepad ++, I skipped school today to complete (it is due today) i am in a way exiled to this room because of this as i have informed my mother that i am finished with it and turned it in via email, so if i was to huddle in one of the rooms with a heater she would see that. So like a christian in the days of persecution i am hiding away in order to conduct my work which i procrastinated on and am still procrastinating in order to tend to this newly made blog. This may gain literally no popularity but that is fine by me as this is something that appeases my want to write and write and write, it is a calming past time that allows me to barely have to think and just express my emotions as one should be able to do.
I have been watching all these TEDx videos and can't shake the feeling that about 90% of the people are pretentious and don't realize how underprivileged most people are. Often times they talk about traveling in order to learn more about yourself and learn about other countries, however this is bullshit as the only true way to learn more about yourself is to do something like this. Express yourself unfiltered and don't allow someone to filter you. If you express yourself and find you like what you are talking about then you should pursue it. I can spend hours talking about the entire history of a particular medium of art and can talk about how inspirational something is and what people see in it even if it is something i hate. There are points when i don't understand peoples like for things and i ask them for a logical explanation as to why they enjoy these things. For instance the song that just came on on my phone is the Dance in the Vampire Bund opening. I love Japanese anime and manga which many people don't understand especially in america where most people here are so self centered that they don't realize how uncultured we are and how much culture other nations have to offer, this is mainly due to the fact that we are one of the most powerful nations in the world which gives us a conceited attitude and feelings of superiority. Thus i can mention people who are famous world wide and people not have a clue who i am talking about because they aren't from america. I also just realized that my previous statement about bullshit and such is partially wrong, but not entirely. I feel it is bullshit them talking about travelling to 52 countries and such and learning these things because one can gain that here in america through the internet, just as people from other countries gain knowledge through the internet about us. What people in america lack is sufficient acceptance of other nations which i think is part of what they were saying in the video yet they worded it in such a way that it can easily be taken wrong until further thought. So i restate that the way you learn about things especially yourself is to consult your feelings as you may find further meaning in things like this and grow to understand things a bit more, one is not required to leave there country and shell out money for "enlightenment" unless that is what they truly want, you can gain all the knowledge you need from reading and especially the internet which provides a wonderful source of information especially about other countries and people. So lets work together in order to spread knowledge of other countries while staying safe and sound in our houses and keep our budget lives in tact. The more i type this the more i get the feeling that people will read this and be confused but the truth is this is how my brain works it goes in circles and circles as i further debate something in my mind, this i can take inspiration from anything if i look far enough. This post is becoming exceedingly long however so i think i will wrap it up by saying that you should never be content with something until you have explored it to its fullest content, thus if you are like me life will never be complete as you will always find more in the wealth of knowledge that is life. I leave you off with the knowledge that you will see me here at least once a week and you should probably prepare your butt-holes.
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